Updated: Jun 8
Life is in complete freefall and there's nothing to be done about it. All attempts to resist are futile and result in the stress you feel.
Apparent decisions appear to be being made but these "decisions" are among the infinite number of possibilities available within consciousness and therefore manifest effortlessly and are made by no-one. The thought "I decided" comes later and is itself a mental fiction.
There is not a single problem that does not exist purely in the mind and all are, without exception, a result of resistance to what "is".
So, in order to live life you have to let go of life. Stop frantically grasping for something to hold on to as nothing can ever be found. Let life be as it is and in that non-resistant awareness is total freedom.
"How can you proceed on from the top of a hundred-foot pole?" (Zen Koan)